From the Brain to the Blog... Is it Really That Hard?

For some reason this process has been especially difficult for me lately. In case you haven't noticed, I haven't been blogging a lot lately. It's been like 2 weeks since my last post, and it was like 2 weeks since the post before that. It's not from a lack of inspiration; I keep a list on my phone of all the topics I come up with to blog about, and currently that list has 15 ideas on it (counting this one). They are all good ideas, too, if I do say so myself! I would like to blame it on time, but really, I'm on the computer all the time so it really wouldn't be that hard to write a single post. The problem, for some reason, is getting the thoughts in my head into a coherent post. Often times, I get inspired to write blog posts at like 3 AM or some other crazy time where I should be sleeping. (Clearly this includes tonight since it's now 3 AM & I am blogging). Instead of getting up at 3 AM (usually I'm trying to fall asleep, I'm not asleep or anything when I get inspired), I write down the idea, and go back to bed. Well, clearly that is not good enough for me, because the post never happens. I read my list of topics almost daily, believe it or not, and am constantly adding new ideas. However, if it's not at that moment that I am inspired to write the post, I just don't feel like writing it anymore. I love writing, and I love blogging, there's no doubt about that. In my last writer's block post, I talked about this a little; I have been second guessing myself lately when it comes to my blog. Am I making sense? Am I just blabbing randomly? Will anyone care about this? Do I sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself? These are just a few of the questions that go through my head when writing a post, and usually I usually determine, that no, I am not making sense, and no, no one cares! So then I just save the post as a draft and think I'll get back to that later... then never do. Part of it, I think, is that I am afraid to write about certain topics because of who might read it. After I got a really nice anonymous comment on my dear ass hole post from someone who thinks they know who I am writing about & they know this person, I became aware of just how public my blog is. I do, after all, link to it on my facebook, so it wouldn't be hard for someone from school to find the link & read it, & possibly know who I am talking about. I know that I am in control of what links are posted, and I am in control of how I let the fact that anyone could read what I'm writing effect me & my writing, but it is one of the reasons I am sometimes apprehensive to publish posts. I don't really have a point... I don't think. It is 3 AM & I'm really tired & I'm losing my train of thought. However, I'm not going to second guess myself. I'm going to publish this post, and hopefully another one tomorrow, and get back on the blogging program instead of going two weeks without posting!

As If I needed more reasons to buy Starbucks…

I may have mentioned before that I am a HUGE fan of Starbucks. Yes, I am a Starbucks-aholic. (stands up) Hi, I’m Patrice, and I’m a Starbucks-aholic. Everyone: Hi, Patrice. So the other day I was enjoying my Grande Non-Fat, with whip Mocha (what? I like it how I like it okay!?) when something caught my eye… On the back of my cup it said: “YOU. HAVE BEEN WORKING WITH CONSERVATION INTERNATOINAL FOR 10 YEARS.” (They put it in caps, not me just to clarify) So I was all umm… I’m not sure I follow? So I kept reading… “Everything we do, you do.” Ok, now I’m really confused… what are they saying to me?! I kept reading (I was bored, ok? I needed some entertainment…) “Buy our coffee and good things happen.” Well, I knew that… ask anyone that knows me, Starbucks can change my mood from bad to good, it has powers that even people don’t have! I won’t quote the whole thing (it’s really not that interesting!) Basically, they were just saying they have partnered up with CI (Conservational International) for the last 10 years and have therefore helped farmers and the planet, and by buying their coffee I am helping!! I don’t know about you, but I think this is FANTASTIC news! I can finally justify my Starbucks addiction love!! I am saving the planet, not satisfying my own needs desires!! I am helping farmers! I, Patrice, am making a difference in the world! So what if it costs me my life savings a few dollars? It is for a good cause!!! I especially liked the way Starbucks ended their letter to me: “It makes a difference. Just like you do. Congratulations, you.” YES! Congratulations, ME! I am a planet saver!!!!! Best.news.ever! :) This is my cup... I know you can't really read it, but I had to save the evidence! This is my excited face when I found out the great news! lol

An Open Letter....

Dear Ass hole, Yes... you. You know who you are. Look there are just some things that I would like to say to you. I'm going to try to be as nice honest as possible. You are attractive... very attractive. I think you know that. I am attracted to you. This doesn't mean that I'm obsessed with you or want a relationship with you. However, when a girl gives you her number and you promise to call her... the least you can do is text her back! Is that so hard? I know you can do it... I question your intelligence sometimes when you talk because you tend to just repeat the same phrases over and over like "woahh all the sudden..." What does that even mean!?!?!? I know you are capable of sending a freaking text message, though. I wanted to believe you that you were a nice guy. Everyone told me you were an ass hole, and you know what, you proved them right! So congratulations! You are an ass!!! You're a good kisser, yes. A good person? NO. Apparently not! Everyone told me you told people you wanted nothing to do with me... so why did you kiss me not one night, not even two nights but on three different occasions?! And don't even think about blaming the alcohol. That is a crap excuse! You know what I wanna know? What makes you so much better than me? What makes me so unimportant to you that I'm not even worthy of a text message back? I'm good enough for you to fool around with multiple times but you can't send me a freakin' text message? What is it? How do you decide whose good enough and whose not? Is it like Project Runway: "One day you're in & the next day you're out"? Is that your motto as well? Apparently... You know what? Thank you for showing your true colors so I can move on... next time you just want a make out buddy stay away from me... & my roommate for that matter! Oh yeah & F**k you! (No, not literally.)

Random Tuesday Thoughts

A weekly link-up post about random thoughts!?!? This is my kinda post! The Un Mom is a girl after my own heart! So here's my randomness for the day!

Friday was Relay for Life. I have been meaning to blog about my experience since I got back at 6 AM the next morning, but just haven't gotten around to it yet! I will post about my experience because it's such an amazing cause & I feel it is definitely worth mentioning! On that note, I am still planning on posting about my spring break. I know my posts are gonna be a little out of order, but like I said in my last post, it's my blog & I'll do what I want so deal with it! My next post, however, I'm pretty sure, will be an open letter to a boy I have affectionately named Ass hole! :) You'll definitely want to read it! I have some serious venting to do! I am going home Friday for Easter weekend & I'm so excited! It's the 1st time I've been home all semester (meaning since Christmas!!!)! I can't wait to see my family! My mom came up & visited a few weeks ago, but I haven't seen my dad or my sister since Christmas. I'm really excited to just relax at home & do some real shopping in D-town, baby! Trust me when you're used to shopping in a city like Dallas, it's hard to adjust to mediocre shopping. There is 1 mall here & it's 30 mins away, so I can't just go whenever! Plus I am so excited for STARBUCKS! We don't have one in town, again the nearest one is 30 mins away, so I can't just go whenever I feel like it! I miss it every day! Ok maybe not every day, but I do miss it! I am so behind on my blog reading. I have been at 1000+ since who knows when! I can't remember the last time it wasn't at 1000+! I tried to create a system: start at the top of the list, read the latest couple posts, comment, then mark all as read. This way I am letting you guys know I've stopped by but I'm not reading your posts from a month ago or longer! Well, my system is taking forever! I keep thinking ooo maybe after this person it will at least say 900 something, but no! That stupid 1000+ won't go away! So I'm slowly working my way over there... if I'm missing something super important, leave it in the comments & I will check it out right away! :) I can't believe my freshman year of college is almost over! I have very mixed feelings about this. I am not looking forward to the summer. I'm going to miss everyone so much, but I can't wait to get away from the school work part & the classes part! If you're not keeping up with MckMama & baby Stellan, you should start. He is a very sick baby in need of a lot of prayers, and there is nothing like the bloggy community to bring people together in a time of need, and to spread the word about someone in need of prayers!

Well I think that sums up my randomness for Tuesday! It's not too late to join in, just head over to The Un Mom & link up!

It Is After All All About Me!

So I haven't been blogging much lately. Have you noticed? Maybe, maybe not. I haven't even talked about Spring Break or anything yet! I've been doing a lot of thinking about blogging, just not so much actual blogging. I'm always thinking about it, writing posts in my head and stuff, but lately I'm just either stumped or the post in my head doesn't come out right in real life. I thought a lot about why I haven't really been posting, and I decided that I lost sight of what blogging is all about. I started this blog almost a year ago, and since then it has changed a lot. In the beginning, no one really read my blog. Which was fine, because I wrote for me. Then, when I realized that if you are interesting, people will follow you and comment you... and that can be very addicting! So I think I lost sight a little bit of the purpose of this blog... it's still all about me! I LOVE comments & i LOVE my bloggy friends, and I'm not saying I'm trading that in. I'm just saying if I write a post that gets 30 comments... awesome! But if I write a personal post that maybe no one knows wtf I'm talking about & I get like 2 comments... that's okay too! I want to be able to lok back on this blog a year from now and remember what was going on in my life right now! So I am going to get back to posting because I'm not going to worry about whether or not this interests anyone... if I feel like writing about it, I will. End of story!

WTF/ WTD Wednesday!

1 of my favorite bloggers Supermommy started What's the Deal With That Wednesday, or as I like to call it WTF Wednesday (I'm not alone in this nickname I'm pretty sure lol). Basically, we just post about things that make you go "Wtf?" or "What's the deal with that!?" (really I just like Wtf because it's shorter...). And today just for playing along, you could be entered to win one of these super cute Easter bunnies! (This is *not* why I am playing along, I am not a moocher like that, but I figured some of you could use motivation, so I would inform you about it!) Anyway, today my WTF Wednesday topic is about sex. Yes, you heard me Sex. Now, don't go running away or anything. This is not about me & sex or anything like that (not that those 2 have anything to do with each other.. just saying don't jump to conclusions!) This is more of a public service announcement, if you will, because all women (and maybe men too) need to know this! According to this article, you know that thing that happens when you're getting it on & it feels really good? Ok, i'll just say it... orgasm? Well, apparently when you do that, you are more likely to get pregnant! Yes, that's right. It increases fertility, and gives couples the greatest chance of getting pregnant! Now maybe it's just me... but I couldn't help thinking WTF when I read that. So if it feels good... really good then that's bad (unless you're trying to have a baby then I guess that's good!). So we're supposed to skip the best part (so I've heard...) or we have a better chance of getting pregnant? hmm... great. Remind me to go take my birth control pills now... KIDDING! *disclaimer... this has nothing to do with my sexual habits... I am not saying I am having sex, or even know where babies come from! I am just telling a story about something that made me think "WTF?"*

Writer's Block or Something Like That

I am back from Spring Break. I am alive (which I think you know because I've been on twitter & commenting on your blogs some). However, if you just follow my blog & don't follow me on twitter or anything, you might wonder if I am, in fact, alive. Why? Because I never freakin post anymore! I did write this post... like 2 weeks ago! Last week I was on Spring Break so I have an excuse. And in my defense, even when I was on Spring Break I still tried to blog (only once, but it counts). I was going to do Photo Story Friday, but the awful internet connection at our hotel wouldn't let me upload pictures to blogger. Then, when I got back I wasn't sure if I should just post that late, or post it as something other than a photo story friday post, or just wait until this Friday. I decided to wait, so at least I have that coming up... On my 16 hour car ride to my Spring Break destination, I started writing a post, with the intent of sending it to College Candy as an audition, but it's still in progress. Also, when some drama arose over the break (not with friends I was with, but other bitchy people), I wrote a post about that, and it was pretty good I think. But the next day, I decided it wasn't even worth posting about, so I didn't post it. And now, since I've been back, every night I sit here staring at my computer wondering what on earth to blog about! I usually do my funny quotes post Monday's, and I thought about doing that, but Spring Break edition because we had ton's of funny quotes over the break. Then I thought about just doing a spring break re-cap, but it's not all that interesting if you weren't there and my friends would kill me if I put our pictures up on (even though they are on facebook). So.... those are my excuses. I am posting this for now, and please feel free to provide feedback. What do you want me to blog about!? I'll work on being more interesting, I promise!