Boot Camp Blues

I have had a major case of the blues lately... the Boot Camp blues. See in an attempt to get skinny get healthy this summer, I did something stupid extreme. I signed up for a boot camp.

I'm not completely naive, I knew that this wasn't gonna be easy. It was, after all, called Boot Camp. Not sleep camp (although that sounds a lot better) and not sort-of-kind-of work out camp. This was boot camp. It is hardcore. Like do or die. Luckily, it is indoors or I really might die considering this Texas heat is out of control.

Let me just say I don't do mornings. Ever. Like, I schedule all my classes as late as possible and I have been known to skip breakfast in the morning just so I can sleep in an extra 20 minutes. I love my sleep. I strongly dislike mornings. So when the choices of when to take the class were 6 AM, 7 AM, or 8 AM, I nearly fainted from exhaustion right there. 6 AM that is way too early, 7 AM is still pretty early, and 8 AM still early but at least I'm not waking up before the sun. So, logically I wanted to take the 8 AM class except that I have this thing called a job. And if I didn't go to Boot Camp until 8, I wouldn't get home until 9:15, and then by the time I got ready it would be like 10:30 (ok, so I take a long time to get ready, whatever), and by the time I got to work it would be like 11 and that's just too late. So, I go to the 7 AM class. I get up at 6:20. That has got to be some sort of record for me.

So, never mind the early mornings. I am learning to deal with those (most days anyway). What is giving me the Boot Camp blues is the pain. Oh, the pain. My first day at boot camp the trainer warned me that I would be sore. "Take lots of Advil, drink lots of water and take a hot bath" she recommended to deal with the soreness. I thought she was being a little dramatic. Like, really, I don't think I need to take Advil every four hours or whatever it says on the bottle. I've been sore before after working out, and I get by okay. To further prove her point that I would be sore, she asked one of the other girls in the class a "regular" if she was sore when she first started. "OMG," she told me, "I couldn't even get off the toilet." At this point, I seriously considered running away. Ok, not really, but for real? You couldn't get off the toilet? What the !##%T!#@ did I get myself into!? 

At first the pain wasn't that bad, and I thought prayed that maybe that girl was exaggerating. Maybe she just has a really low pain tolerance or something. And then, I went back for the 2nd day. And oh my god. She was right. After that, not only could I not get off the toilet, I didn't want to get on the toilet in the first place. Or walk up or down any stairs. Or get up from sitting down. Really, all I wanted to do was lay down and not get up! Because, oh my god, my legs hurt. They hurt so bad! Suddenly, even simple daily activities like walking were super painful. I was seriously starting to wonder if my legs were ever going to go back to normal. I mean it was bad enough that I was walking slower than a snail and like I was 80 years old, but with every step I took I was in serious pain! After the 3rd day of Boot Camp, my legs were so sore that I literally slid down the stairs on my butt like you do when you're like 2 and can't walk up/down stairs yet. Yes, I slid down the stairs to avoid walking down them because I was in pain and even that hurt!

Because having my legs be in serious pain isn't enough, I also developed some kind of foot injury. After my first day, I was limping around because the bottom of my right foot was all of the sudden hurting like crazy every time I would walk around after sitting for awhile. Apparently, that meant I need new tennis shoes (and of course the only one's I liked were the most expensive. Sorry, mom!). So, after my second day of boot camp, there I laid in bed, icing my foot and saying "ouch" every time I got up because my legs hurt!


Fast forward a few days (to today) and finally my legs (and foot) are back to normal, no more excruciating pain. So when I went to Boot Camp this morning I was nervous. Was I going to have another week like last week, full of pain? Well, today the trainer announced we were working our butts. Ok, butt workout I can do that. At least my legs won't be in pain, right? Maybe not, except add this to list of things only I would do: I idiotically somehow managed to pull a muscle in my butt. Who does that!!? Apparently me. So, back to the Advil popping and being pathetic taking it easy for me.

So now I am wondering what can possibly happen next because I'm sure it will be equally as ridiculous entertaining. When all else fails, you have to laugh about it, right? All I can say, is at the end of this thing I better be a freaking toothpick. (Not likely, but a girl can dream!) So, you see, that is why I have been suffering from the Boot Camp Blues (or more like the boot camp pains, but it doesn't quite have the same ring to it!). I think it's pretty legit. And that was only week one...

KMBFAG Week 3

I know this post is late... I think I was avoiding it because I didn't want to admit failure! Last week was my sorority's philanthropy week (basically a week full of really fun activities with the other fraternities & sorority's hosted by us to raise money for our national philanthropy). So, not only was I really busy, but we were also kind of spoiled by the other Greek houses. Especially on "suck up day/ chapter appreciation day"... people brought over breakfast pizza, tons of delicious chocolate chip cookies, cake, brownies, a ton of candy, and the gifts just kept on coming! On top of that probably slightly more alcohol was consumed during the week more than usual weeks, due to all the fun activities! I really had the best intentions... I wanted to make it to the gym, but I just kept getting so busy! We had events every night, and it was just hard to fit in time! I hate making excuses, I really do, but I have to for the previous week, because it's the truth! Could I have worked out, even if just for a little bit, if I really wanted to that bad? Yes, probably. But I was having fun, and it just fell down the priority list, honestly. I didn't completely fail: I did work out a couple times, but not every day, and I'm sure I gained a lot of weight from all the sweets that were consumed. Once you fall off the wagon, it's really hard to get back on... I haven't been back to the gym yet. I feel like crap... I eat so much better when I work out, I feel better about myself, I know I'm working towards my goals, and that makes me feel good. I am done making excuses. Last week was a lot of fun, and I'm glad I enjoyed the week. It consisted of a lot of great memories. Now, I just need to get back on that wagon and not only stay on, but make it go faster! I've got to work extra hard to make up for lost time, and I do plan to do so. We have initiation this week, meaning no boys, no booze, no bars rule is in effect until Saturday. Meaning, I won't be going out Thursday or Friday so I will not be hung over under the weather extra tired Friday or Saturday. I think I will take Sunday off as our sorority is hosting a party Saturday night. I don't know how much weight I've gained... I'm assuming it's a lot, but hopefully I'll be pleasantly surprised when I weigh in tomorrow. Goals for this week:

• Get back on the wagon a.k.a. get my Big Fat Ass back to the gym!
• Watch what I eat... when I don't work out my eating kind of goes down the drain, too, so I've got to get back to eating healthier!
• Drink more water.
• Start keeping track of what I eat... I think if I hold myself accountable, it will be easier not to eat that extra candy or whatever.

I may or may not update with my weight for this week once I weigh in, depending on how bad it is I might just wait until next week. Hope you did better than me this week!

Kissing My Big Fat Blog Ass Goodbye: Week 2!

So this was week two or technically week one since I didn't start until this past week! I think I did a pretty good job this week, and my friend told me she can see in my face it looks like I lost weight! I worked out every day this week except Saturday and Sunday because, as my one of my friends put it "those are days to recover from the night before!" I made it a goal to eat healthy, and I think I did pretty well. I made it a point to incorporate more fresh fruit into my diet, and was very conscious of what I was eating. I for the most part avoided sweets, except for one night which I call my "off night." Wednesday night we had a "Boo Boys Boo party"... basically we just had a lot of junk food that had cute names that basically said eff boys in not so many words! I ate a lot more junk food than I should have, but that was my one slip up for the week. Unless you count all the alcohol I had this weekend- my resolution to only drink light beer was a good one, but I failed to consider all the other types of drinks I tend to consume... yummy, fruity one's that probably have 1,000 calories each. So, I'll have to watch my intake of those & I suppose stick to gold 'ole light beer... yum (not). My workouts were all really good this week... I joined the Y like I said I would, and I'm really happy with my decision to do that. Our fitness center at school is really small, and always crammed with athletes, and there's something about working out next to athletes that makes you want to run as far away from the gym as possible and count that as your work out! So the Y is a much better fit for me! I started out just doing the treadmill for Cardio, but by the end of the week I decided to switch it up & try different machines... which seriously kicked my ass! Why is everything else so much harder than the treadmill!? Weird! I tried to get in some weights, too, but I didn't do it everyday. Alright... moment of truth. Did I lose any weight!? Here's the thing... I don't have a scale, so I only weigh myself at the gym, usually after my workouts in case the number is lower after burning some calories! Well, the Y has 2 scales (1 I call the "dr.'s office scale" where you have to balance it & everything, then a digital one). We all know digital ones can sometimes be off (or am i making that up?!), so I decided to weigh myself on both... everytime. So at the beginning of the week, according to the "Dr.'s office scale" I weighed 174 (I think), but according to the digital scale I weighed 170. Today I weighed 169 on both scales... so I'm going to go out on a limb (maybe) and go with the "Dr.'s office scale" for both weights. Which means... I lost 5 lbs this week!! If this is in fact true (assuming I remember correctly what the scale said at the beginning of the week, and assuming I did my math correctly on the scale today), I met my goal for the week, plus 2 lbs! I'm really proud of myself for sticking with my workouts, and eating healthy! It's so hard to say "no" to fast food, and all the sweets that pop up occasionally, but I did it (for the most part) and I dragged my butt to the gym & worked out hard, and you know what!? It felt really good! :) Here's what the digital scale read today:So, I'm hoping I didn't make up the fact that I lost weight, and that the "Dr.'s office scale" really did say 174 at the beginning of the week... I know it said more than the digital one, so I'm trusting it! I think I'll stick to one scale this week... Goals for this week:

• Work out harder, and longer
• more weights- I didn't always do this, and I want to lose weight, but get toned, too, so I need to do some weight lifting as well as cardio.
• Stay away from the junk food... it's so hard! Stupid valentine's day- now it's everywhere!
• More water!
• Watch the fruity drink intake this weekend (probably good for more reasons than 1 if you know what I mean!)

If you want to join us in our quests to kiss our big fat blog asses goodbye, head to Tenakim's place & link up with us! p.s. Sorry it took me forever to get this post up... I was waiting to weigh myself at the gym, then I got distracted & never wrote my post until now!

Kissing My Big Fat Blog Ass Goodbye!

TenaKim is on a mission... to get skinny! This is a mission I fully support because it's been a mission of mine for years, with some moderate success... and a lot of failing! Each week, we will blog about our progress and be brutally honest about our successes and failures! So I suppose I will start with why I decided to go along with this mission (besides the fact that Tena came up with a kick-ass name & a really cute button!). I'm sure you all have heard of the freshman 15... yeah try freshman 20. Ok, so maybe it's not that bad... but I honestly refuse to weigh myself. The last time I weighed myself was over Christmas break on the wii Fit & I think it was something like 175. I'm 5'3... so that's not a good weight! According to the Wii Fit I'm "In Danger of Being Overweight", which if you ask me, is actually a nice way of putting it because I would've told you I am overweight. And while I can blame it on the whole it's my freshman year, every freshman gains the freshman 15 thing... I have honestly struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember... and I'm only 19. I have had a couple successes in the past, I worked hard to work out and eat healthy and I manged to lose a significant amount of weight. I was proud of myself, I felt good. But it was so much easier to slack off than it was to stick with it. Especially once I got to school, there were so many excuses: no time, no energy, new place I don't know where anything is (especially the gym), no one to work out with and worst of all free (at least to me not to my parents ha).. the list goes on and on! Bottom line: I lack motivation and perserverance even though I desperately want to be skinny! My highest weight was somewhere between 190 and 195 I think... and I managed to lose a good 20 lbs and get down to 163 my 1st semester of my senior year. Since then, I've been a slacker and gained back not all, but a lot of my weight! Honest truth time... in case you don't believe me I'm fat 'cuz I know some of you won't! Here's me: Let's examine, shall we?

• Fat stomach? Check
• "Muffin top" check
• Double chin? check
• Huge arms? (not in a good way!) Check
• Fat thighs? Check.

I could keep going, but I think you get the point... So what am I gonna do about it? I'm glad you asked! Here are the things that have got to go and have got to happen if I'm going to lose weight:

• No more drunken 3 AM eating! So bad to sleep on all those calories...
• Healthy choices! No more soda, cookies, candy, pizza, etc.
• Only light beer! (sorry I can't give up beer altogether... I'm in college!)
• Sign up for the gym! The YMCA in town is only $15/month with no fee to sign up, and my mom already approved it! Now I just have to go!

So my goal is to lose 15 lbs in 5 weeks... 3 lbs a week is reasonable right? TenaKim lost 3 lbs already this week! 5 weeks is Spring Break, and I'm going to Panama City with my friends. The thought of wearing a bikini makes me want to vomit... that's gotta change! Want to join me and other fellow bloggers in our quest to get skinny and healthy!? Head over to Tenakim's blog and join us in kissing our big fat blog asses goodbye!!

Looking Fine by 2009- I'm back in Action

Well okay that title's a lie, I'm not in action at all. But I feel I have neglected this little goal and have therefore been letting my bloggy friends down! I haven't forgotten about LFB 2009, how could I when it's on half of your blogs! And most of you have good news- you lost weight, started working out, eating healthier, or any combination of those! You would think this would be motivation enough for me to got off my butt... unfortunately, no. I haven't been to the gym since I got to school and it's been 2 months. I'm just so unmotivated! It's so much easier when I'm not in class to sit on my butt and catch up on blogs, or TV shows online, instead of going to the gym and working out! And don't even get me started on eating.. ugh! It's horrible the habits I've picked up! When I do the cafeteria, which is rare, I eat way too much and take full advantage of the whole free desert thing! Usually, though, I go to what we call the Grab-n-Go.. basically you get like a pre-made sandwich, which sounds at least semi-healthy right? And you do get fruit with it! But you also get chips, and cookies, which I know aren't good for you. I guess I could get an apple and an orange instead of just an apple.. I used to just skip the chips & cookies all together, but then you don't really get what you're paying for. and even if it isn't my money, I don't wanna be ripped off! So maybe I'll go for one or the other and 2 fruits instead of both! That will be goal #1- 2 fruits, with chips or cookies but not both! And no free desert from the cafeteria! Also, I've mentioned before the dreaded candy aisle. I always tell myself to stay away, but then I never do! I always end up buying some kind of candy and telling myself I'll share, I might not even eat it all myself, blah blah. Well, I usually do end up eating most of it, and for no reason other than I feel like it! So goal #2... stay away from the candy aisle! I have to finish what I have already, so it doesn't go to waste, but I will make an effort to share so I don't eat as much. I haven't gone near a scale in months... since I got to school, since I stopped working out, stopped eating healthy. I don't wanna know what that number is going to say. My clothes still fit, so it's not like I've gained a significant amount of weight, but I can't use that as my justification. The truth is, even if I try to tell myself I am, I'm not happy with my weight. I want to be proud of what I see in the mirror, and I wish that happened over night, but it doesn't! Goal #3- Get on a scale. Hopefully the reality check will be what I need to get my butt moving! Then, once I have the number, I will post it on here, and continue to do so every week (with your help, I might need nagging, people!) Goal #4 is to find a work out buddy- let's be honest, it's college. I'm not in school anymore from 8-3. I have a lot of free time during which it wouldn't kill me to get to the gym. I know if I have a work out buddy it will be the motivation I need to get my butt in action. I need someone hollering at me, making me go, even when I whine and make excuses! With 69 girls in the house, I've got to find someone right?! Thanksgiving break is coming up in a month, and my original goal at the end of the summer was to be able to buy designer jeans. I tried unsuccessfully this summer, and unfortunately couldn't fit into a single pair. I don't want to be that person anymore! I want to see my old friends at Thanksgiving, and my family, and have them thinking about how much weight I've lost, not gained! I'm changing the jeans goal to Christmas. By the time I go home for Christmas break, I want to be able to buy some nice, skinny people, jeans! So, I know actions speak louder than words, but I'm really gonna try hard to make the actions echo my words. I don't want to let you guys down anymore, or myself!

Looking fine by 2009

So my Internet has been down since Friday & it's really starting to make me crazy. So i am attempting to blog via iPhone update: I'm now in the library.. posting from my phone took too long! Continue reading now... Anyway I was reading all your latest posts & trying to catch up when I saw a bunch of you were blogging about this looking fine by 2009 thing. That's when I remembered that Jen over at Daily Mish Mash was hosting this whole weight loss thing & o ya, I signed up. Hmm forgot about that. Actually I didn't forget because even though it may seem I'm not here as often lately I'm just not on here as in my blog. Really I'm on Google reader like 1000 times a day so blogging is always on my mind. So the truth is I didn't forget I signed up. I just didn't know it started right away. Anyway I will tell you about the week 1 I didn't know was week 1. I have talked about my weight struggles on here before. I don't like saying I'm on a diet so I'm on what I call a permanent diet where you try to eat healthy. Yeah not working. I really want to avoid the whole Freshman 15 so I'm willing to do what it takes to avoid that. But so far that hasn't been much. I suck at eating healthy. I love candy & all things sweet so I am guilty of the occasional slip up in the whole eating healthy plan. And by occasional I mean like everyday. Ya. Not good. There are some days I do well. I bought a bunch of slim fast bars to keep in my room and I had a couple days where that was all I ate. But then I went out to frat parties & there was beer juice& margaritas soda (my favorite) & I don't know how but somehow they managed to get consumed... By me. Like I said I don't know how that happened. Also, I go to Wal-Mart a lot. And the 1st freaking aisle is of course the candy aisle. And well, I th0ught it would be just brilliant to buy some chocolate covered raisin's and Dots. Yeah then I ate them. All. There's also the time the other day where I went to Subway.. I know it's healthy good job right? Well, some idiot brilliant entrepreneur decided to combine Subway with a Baskin Robbin's. And so I decided to have a nice bowl of ice cream with my sandwich.

So have I at least been exercising you ask? Well let me tell you my versions of exercise.Well, you see, I don't have a car here at school, so I have to walk everywhere. Even though it's a pretty small campus and you can walk anywhere in under 10 minutes, walking all over to class is a lot of work! And it's still pretty hot out here, so I break a sweat. Does that count?! Also, I live on the 3rd floor of our Sorority House, so I go up and down three flights of stairs several times a day. Sometimes 4 when I go to the basement. That's hard work, too! That's pretty much my daily exercise... is that enough to make up for all those beers and candy ?!? I doubt it. So, I promise to do better this week. Except today I already had a brownie. And some dots, but just a few! So, this week I promise to do better, or at least try. Goals:

• Drink more water
• No more candy, etc. (That doesn't include the aforementioned alcoholic beverages- sorry, it's college!)
• Work out (Besides walking to class and up the stairs!)
• I'll come up with more later! haha

I haven't taken my measurements or anything, yet, but I will. And I will update this post with them and maybe a picture I don't know I don't even like looking in the mirror naked or in a bathing suit, so posting that on the Internet would be my worst fear. I'll think about it...

Unspeakable

So last week I was on vacation, right? I don't know about you, but when I am on vacation I'm not obsessing over what I'm eating and focusing on working out. I am trying to have a good time and enjoy my vacation. Vacation should mean a vacation from all that, too! So I splurged... alot. When I say splurged, I mean strawberry shortcake, Angel food cake, Dessert with lunch, breakfast and dinner. I could go on forever... Let me back up for a minute and say this. I struggle with my weight like how many other percent of people in the population do... and it's always been a struggle to get slimmer, blah blah you know the drill. Well, starting last summer I made a vow to get healthy. I was pretty overweight, to be honest (Maybe one day I might post pictures if I'm feeling really honest). With the help of my basketball coach ( I didn't play for the team... I was the manager, but the Coach was like a mom to me) I started running and exercising and eating healthier. This continued for the 1st semester of my Senior year. Then... things went a little down hill. Working out was harder because my coach was having a baby and eventually went on bed rest so we weren't working out during basketball anymore. Anyway, I ended up losing about 30 lbs., and got to a weight I was happy with. Then.... I did the unspeakable.. I weighed myself right after my vacation. We all know you don't weigh yourself after vacation. I don't even weigh myself that often normally. But I was at my best friends house, she had a scale in her bathroom, and curiosity took over. It was not good. That number on that scale told me I gained 10 lbs. That can't be right. Ok, so I'm exaggerating a little because I didn't gain all 10 lbs in the week I was on vacation, but I gained at least 5 in that week and it adds up to 10 lbs more than the number I was at after losing weight. My point is it is so frustrating trying to lose weight! There is temptation everywhere! You should see where I work... it is not a normal office. There is candy all over the place. I sware. I'm not exaggerating. And knowing it is there is so hard!!! I am a sucker for sweets. And I'm working out twice a week with a trainer, I'm logging what I eat, I feel like I'm doing all the right things but I can't stop eating sweets and I am definitely not losing weight! Any diet tips out there? I really wanted to lose more weight this summer so I could be in awesome shape for college, but apparently that's not going to happen...